Back to Reality

But do you want to know what they don't tell you?

Let's say you shoot for the moon and you land among the stars... Good for you! You reached so high, past where you thought you can go. And even if you didn't reach the moon, you still made a goal that was out of this world. Seriously, good for you.

Now let's just say you shoot for the moon and you don't land among the stars... Yeah. That fall back to earth? Good luck. It happens, it really does. Not everybody lands among the stars.

The point here is to not dissuade you from reaching higher than what you believe your potential to be, rather it is to breathe a little bit of reality into you. The higher you reach, the bigger the fall (unless you have that extraterrestrial safety net.)

I'm a romantic. I'm quixotic. I'm a dreamer. Realism is not my thing. Practicality is not what I'm known for.

This whole law school application game has got me feeling lower than I ever have. Being dosed with a splash of reality is like being launched into the deep end of a freezing ocean.

I'm scared. I'm drowning. I feel as if I'm alone with no help line.

I'm just wondering where I went wrong and whether or not I'll be able to swim...

Or sink.

Music Monday!

Don't get your hopes up and don't hold your breath. I know I am very on top of my posting game as of recent, but what's a second semester senior supposed to do instead of obsessing over law schools?

Also, snow days. My ass and couch have been getting to know each other quite intimately over the past couple of days. No need to get up except for food and water.

Side bar: Have you seen The Following? It's so damn good. Unfortunately, it's horror (but not in a slasher type way, more so thriller) and a little bit psychological and filled with a lot of crime. It's amazing. Good job, Kevin Bacon and James Purefoy. The acting is phenomenal, in addition to the cinematic elements and storyline.

Anyways, I added some new songs to #MusicMonday!!!

So how the Music Monday tab will go, I will probably just keep on listing my favorite songs and videos, leaving you to explore the full playlist on your own.

1. "Fire Meets Gasoline" Sia
2. "Hold Back The River" James Bay
3. "Nothing But Space" Keys N Krates

Artist of The Week: Sia. 

Sorry, damn blogger won't let me properly embed videos that aren't YouTube hosted........ So I couldn't put the official music video, that is hosted by Vevo. So, here's the audio.

On a positive ending: God, bless her vocals. I need them to sing at my weddings, for reals. 

Law Schools, Flaw Schools

I'm ripping my hair out... And I literally can, seeing as I am wearing hair extensions. That would actually suck, so I am not literally ripping my hair out.

But I am going crazy. Extremely.

If you can guess the topic of this post, it's about law schools!!! Now I have no idea whether or not they are flawed since I am not on the law school side, but I can still make broad assumptions via my experiences and thorough stalking on law school forum boards.

I'm not here to point out law school flaws, per se, but I am here to complain about my experiences, thus far.

Actually, not even really.

I just wanted to complain about law schools. Can somebody please decrypt the whole law school admissions process? That'd be so clutch. And why can't they tell you what part of your application wasn't strong enough when they reject you? That shouldn't be too hard if they truly, even if they do have internal number cut offs.

I'm a little bitter because got rejected at my ED school, but life goes on.

So, I'm currently waiting for the stream of rejections to roll in.

I sent in my applications early. If you don't want me, save me the despair and reject me now.

If you do want me, save me the despair and accept me now.

If you're confused about me, hey--I have an idea: offer me an interview!

It's truly not that hard, in my head.

But, alas, I am the one clacking away on my keyboard while they are the ones who are actually reading thousands of applications--so who am I to judge?

Maybe, if I ever get accepted to law school, I'll become a judge after I become a lawyer so that way when somebody is like "Who are you to judge?" I'll just be like "Well, I am a judge and that is my job."

In the meanwhile, enjoy this picture of my dog. She's living the life, while I'm not-so-awkwardly snowed in with 3 inches of snow... Southern schools confuse me. She's actually snowed in because at home, there is almost 3 feet of snow. That's a reason to cancel stuff.

Stay warm, Chessie, stay warm.

About Me!

If you've ever checked out the "About Me" tab, you know how much I enjoy those Tumblr/MySpace type surveys. For the site I write for, I have to go on 7 dates from 7 different dating apps, so I mastered the "About me" in a couple of sentences. I'm listing some of the things I put on the different apps. I pretty much used the same fun facts and pictures across the different apps, but I was pretty creative for the first two apps.

Here are some of the fun facts I used (obviously I didn't disclose all of this information)...:

1. I'm obsessed with my dog. Like seriously.
2. I call myself a poser paleo eater because I eat goat cheese, gluten free pizza crust, and potato chips.
3. I like fantasy RPG games.
4. I'm a Political Science major.
5. If you ask me what I'm doing next year, I will yell internally. 
6. I like planned spontaneity. I like to be surprised from a list of options that I have already pre-approved. Every now and then I enjoy true surprises, but rarely.
7. I have 30 or so unpublished and unfinished stories sitting on my computer.
8. I will probably never, ever finish them.
9. I have a weak spot for tater tots.
10. I really want to start a Green Smoothie Cult. Please message me for details.
11. I really wish I can answer "Glitter and sequins" when people ask me to list my favorite colors.
12. I aspire to own a hospital.
13. I also want to be a US Senator.
14. I genuinely enjoy water as a drink.
15. I prefer high quality 1-ply toilet paper.
16. I like to pretend I model and I have impeccable taste in fashion.
17. I waist train occasionally. I got bruises from it.
18. I've never had a sober kiss before. 
19. Or a sober sexual interaction.
20. I really want twins.
21. If kids are coming out of my body, it's happening before 32, with or without a man.

Here are my three favorite pictures that I used:

When the article is published, I'll make sure to upload it here and give you guys the behind the scene details :).

Music Monday, Remastered

So I have officially switched over to Apple Music and I love it. Mostly because my dad is paying for it. Unfortunately everybody and their father is using Spotify, just like everybody and their mother all have FitBits while I just got the Apple Watch.

Greaaaatttttt.........

I'm really not sure how Apple Music works with shareable playlists, but I'll still be sharing it.

I'm probably ditching the weekly 15 songs, because that's just a lot of commitment and for anybody who gets my notifications, you know how I am when it comes to commitment. But at least once a month, I'll update you with some of my favorites and I'll add the playlist link. I also probably won't have a new playlist once a month but I also won't be adding like 15 or so songs a week.

As you already know, I've been binge listening to Børns, especially his acoustic stuff. I can't even apologize for an overload of his music, but for the sake of expanding both of our musical horizons, I'll limit him and other artists in my playlist.

The first playlist is up: #MusicMonday

These are my Top 3 songs:

1. "10,000 Emerald Pools" Børns 
2. "Free ft. Emeli Sandé" Rudimental
3. "Foreigner's God" Hozier

I really truly cannot wait to see him live. My day will be made.

Happy (Belated!) New Year!

Let's push past the "I'm so sorry for never posting!" crap because I feel like I start every prolonged post with that.

I made my New Year's Resolutions though!

Can you guess them?

If you guessed that I would force myself to post to this blog, you're half right! Let me explain...

I'm going to write this year. Write, write, write, write, write, write! What am I going to do? WRITE! My blog, random reflections, for HerCampus, stories... I want to set aside at least thirty minutes a day to writing while there is no TV in the background.

My other resolutions though...

• Running. I should get back to that. I have the clothes, the sneakers, and the Apple Watch. I am going to go running.
• Dynamic Cardio. Like zumba. At least once a week.
• Toning. Pilates. I'm taking a class for that for credit. But I need to make sure to upkeep it during the summer and next year! I already took a class. My obliques were ON FIRE. I loved it.
• Cooking. Two new recipes per month. That's my goal.

Well, yeah, that's really it. I hesitate to call them "Resolutions" because they're things I already do, I just want to hold myself accountable to them.

I should probably do better on my money spending habit.

Eh.

In the meanwhile, please listen to this. I'm seeing Børns next month. I liked him but then I started LOVING him. Now I'm slightly obsessed with him. I have listened to these 2 songs about 20 times each just today.

Seriously obsessed... Actually, all I did today was listen to acoustic music from a couple of my favorite bands and artists: Walk the Moon, Hozier, Sam Smith, Adele, Imagine Dragons, and Børns obviously. Hope you like the two songs!

7 Things I Want To Do Before I Graduate

I'm over New Year's Resolutions. I never do them anyways. So I decided to think of a couple of things I want to personally do before I leave my wonderful university! Because if I don't do it in college... when will I ever do them? Summer? HAH RIGHT. I am currently a living, breathing example of trying to be proactive during the summer: I DID NOTHING.

I seriously told myself that I would be productive. I guess I finished Netflix shows and I lost some weight and I did healthy things, but let me be productive to society. My couch has seen enough of my butt for years to come.

1) Get Into Law School
Because the Lord and I both know that if I get rejected this time around, I'm just calling quits forever. Although this one has lots of many mini sections like taking the LSAT, writing my personal statement, and filling out my damn applications. But I'll lump them into one.

2) Visit Multiple Local Eateries
Chains do not count (unless they're only pertinent to this location!) I'm in a place with lots of cute food places. Let me check them out! Seriously, if I don't do these while I'm here in college... I have no idea when the next time I'll be back. Homecoming? Sure but will I really be up to eating at new places? Probably not.

3) Go Adventuring
Because my butt and my couch need a break... Let my cute butt visit a quarry or some mountains. Or, we can start small and go visit the gardens first. Baby steps.

4) Say Yes More
Not like "Yes Man" the movie. But I'm just going to be more open to different possibilities. Dinner? YES. Lunch? YES. You're paying? Double triple YES. Girl I rarely remember from freshman year wants to reconnect? YES. Tinder date? YES. Party? YES. Adventuring? YES. Mountain climbing? ........... YES *but actually crying.* If I'm not doing anything, then why not? Like I said, my butt and my couch need a break.

5) Be More Simple
I threw away like 75% of my clothes. I want to downsize and play with basics. I'm pretty. Let my face do the talking and let my clothes and makeup complement it. Also, who has time for drama? Not me. Who has time to get angry and over analyze things? I apparently do all the time, but I don't want to anymore. Let's strike that.

6) Publish Something
iBooks, Kindle, Amazon Books, Google Books, whatever. I just want to publish one of the stories I am trying to write. I've published articles but now I want to upgrade.

7) Lose Weight and Do Me
I'm getting there, guys, I'm getting there. Goal weight is like another 30 pounds by graduation! (And 40 pounds by law school next year.) It's tough, but I'm getting there!